Firstly, I'm glad the weather is starting to take a turn for the better and brighter, I do love the winter months but when they're dragging on into March, I have to say, I'm a tad over it. The Beast from the East tried to have a little go over the weekend but was quickly blown away again, leaving just a scattering of hail which quickly melted away. And I had a really good weekend, Sean and I have been able to spend a lot more time with each other now that he's started a new job and his schedule is a lot more user friendly (my schedule is also a lot more user friendly) so that's been nice. So the weekend was a really natural fit, we got up earlier and spent time chatting and debating ideas before doing some of "those" jobs - the ones that have been sitting around needing to be done for a while... so after a bit of productivity I disappeared, leaving him to do his own thing, while I went out shopping with Mum. We spent a good two hours at Dobbies, discussing my newly realised garden design idea for our back garden - thank you "Big Dreams, Small Spaces" and Netflix for bringing inspirational dollops of Monty Don into my life - and left with a collection of herbs to beef up my trough and some new terracotta pots. This may sound sad but it's a thing you grow into I guess!
How does this tie into the topic? Well, one of the things I put on my vision board was to "Further develop our house" which has been lack-lustre since I put it on their in January. There is a whole list (spreadsheet) of things that I want to do to the house - not even counting the fourth bedroom idea - but some of them are more achievable, like painting rooms which when the weather turns for the better and I find that trickle of motivation to get cracking. So having a garden design idea allows me to figure out (finally) what I want it to look and feel like - and that's exciting! So if you know someone who can take up and relay paving slabs, give me a holler!
As you know, I chose to learn transcendental meditation earlier in the year which works towards the "Expand my mind" goal - I have to say, with the change of job, it's really thrown off my morning routine (which did consist of getting up, meditating, getting ready and going) as I have to get up earlier for work so I'm still working on getting that back onto a routine.
I've also found that I'm happier, because my mind isn't so frazzled, to sit and read - I've been reading "Rise Sister Rise" and I can't tell you how much I want to go on that trip to Glastonbury, around all the sites and spiritually awakened places that Rebecca talks about - fingers crossed the membership re-opens and I can join for the September trip.
I also wanted to learn more, I have a Shaw Academy membership which gives me easier access to learning materials as there is no pressured time schedule - a good and a bad thing. So I've picked a selection of courses I want to do and added them to my list so I can sit and work through them, hopefully improving some skills while I'm at it.
Typically one of my goals was to find my "Perfect weight", which does mean I have to lose weight but not for the sake of being slimmer, more for the fact of being in balance body and mind, and as I'm healthy now, just ensuring that continues. I think I will always be curvier and that doesn't bother me, but I don't respond well to slow creeping weight gain so want to be a bit more active at controlling that aspect. My new working environment is a lot more weight conscious with most people being on slimming world and "counting sins" at the lunch table - that is not my deal and there is just more to existence than obsessively counting calories or sins when you sit down for a meal. Never-the-less, I joined the local gym which is not too far away from the house and instead of trying to motivate myself to get on the gym floor and on a cross-trainer, I've decided to go for a different tact and do classes instead which I will use to build myself up to hit the gym floor. So I've decided to do two yoga classes a week and a body balance class, then I can add things as I want but that is a good start for me and my new schedule.
Even our couple goals are going fairly well, "Travel together 3 times a year" well we already have two booked and we'll probably throw in a trip down South to my families house in Yorkshire for a break away. "Be more sociable" we've both been stretching out to do more things with friends and work colleagues, we have friends round to the house - not a lot - but that's a building block process for us.
The goal I'm most excited about is "Expand our family" - no, I am not pregnant and am not likely to be pregnant any time soon - we have been binge watching the local adoption centres and the multitude of "pet" websites to spot a suitable addition to our household. We've gone back and forth with our ideas, we know we want a dog, do we want to adopt or buy from a breeder? What breed do we want? Sean wants a German Shepherd or long haired dog which I veto'd as I'm not ready to deal with all the hair chaos nor the sheer size! My family have had a black lab before and I adored her so that is my preference (as a child I always wanted a dalmatian an I'm not sure that's worn off either!). Our neighbours across the road have two French bulldogs, which for a time I said I wanted but I've gone back off them... I know that when the right puppy is available, we'll find her and that'll be that - oh and yes, girls only!
With plans to get my Dad a border terrier puppy for his birthday in July, I'm hoping to get one nearer the summer as well - with our new schedules and proximity to the house, it's a nervous thought to be in charge of keeping another living thing alive but I can't wait. Dogs bring this constant positive energy that I miss and can't wait to have around me again.
I'm pretty hard on myself as an individual and I constantly criticise all the things I haven't managed to do, Curves is still slow which constantly frustrates and worries me, so that impatience to see results leaks into every aspect of my life. But sitting back and reviewing my vision board, thinking through the things I've already done and seeing the plans connecting in front of me is proof that I've already taken the right steps forward and as the year unfolds I'll be on the path the transforming and forging a new sort of life for myself. I wrote myself a deadline letter in January and by February I'd had a response from the Universe which put me down a path I didn't expect - as it does, and so I think I will take the time to write another letter, explaining my intended result and see which path I'm given next. Wish me luck.