As you know I've been going to a weekly yoga class (for beginners apparently!) and I've chatted about doing yoga at home, doing squats at home, cutting down sugar and ultimately getting healthier. When I get to the stage of vegging at home, I sink into the sofa and remain until I have to go to bed. Only then does it occur to me, as I'm snuggling into the duvet, that I haven't done any yoga practise and I haven't done my squats. Damn.
So I've had to do something that truly annoys me and set a daily alarm at midnight to stir me into getting off of the sofa and doing squats and yoga practise.
The only challenge to that is this damn virus that everyone is STILL passing around. I've had it, cleared it, had it again, cleared it again and surprise surprise it's back again! Started with an irritated throat yesterday and has turned into the sneezy, coughy pile of poop that it was last time. So last night I did squats but with great effort as I was so shattered I could have fallen asleep on the bus home but I did choose not to do any yoga practise purely because I couldn't face it with my blocked nose and temperamental headache.
Then today, our first day off together in almost a month and all we've achieved is to go out for a burger, watch 40 minutes of a movie before falling asleep on the sofa and bubba has gone to bed. It was yoga day today as well, and I feel crap because I've chosen to not go as I feel like crap. It's amazing that you can do that to yourself isn't it?
"I feel like crap but I feel like I've let myself down and feel worse about that fact I didn't go to yoga despite the fact I know I wouldn't have managed it because I feel like crap" - it's an internal cycle of doom somewhat. I will have to do practise tonight though, just something to stretch out my muscles as my back has been achey today.
I've been having a great year so far, everything is working well and I'm so much more positive. Today is one of the tougher days though, I love days off with bubba and I had a great meeting for CoT today as well but when you feel rubbish because of a virus your body is desperately trying to fight off you feel like there's a dampener on the day. The way to relieve that dampener? Chocolate cake obvs.
It's ok, I'll work it off with my squats and yoga ;)