It's not an exact science, trying to re-connect. There isn't a physical place to go, like a church, you have to find the place within yourself - find that moment of peace.
Candle-lit evenings, incense infused rooms, soft instrumental piano, the sound of heavy and clear rainfall in a garden at night - I just need peace. Calm, unadulterated peace and slowly my brain can start to reset itself. I sat this week and - while Sean played drinking/pc games (which you can see on YouTube if you feel the need!) - I read my book, a book that I've been reading for months - because I've not actually be reading it, its been sitting in my bedside drawers. And my Soul was happy, it was calm and at peace.
One thing I'd realised was, our flat is technologically advanced, we have tech everywhere - in every room. That is too much for me sometimes - I realise the irony as I type this post - I completely appreciate technology but sometimes I can't have it that much of it in my space. Sean has been gaming a lot recently, he's doing his own thing and promoting his own brand and I'm proud of what he's doing. There is that element where I need his undivided attention, I want to spend time with him - without him constantly messaging on his phone or without the knowledge that he "needs to leave" as he's got a match. So, last night, I asked him for one night a week - one night where he wouldn't game, where he'd switch off from that aspect of his world to spend time with me.
As quoted from Hector and the Search for Happiness, "We all have an obligation to be happy" - watch the movie btw, it's great!
Some much needed time with my other half makes me happy - hopefully it still makes him happy as well. I enjoy the calm that happiness brings, the security and the genuine motivated drive to accomplish things. So tonight, on our 4th anniversary, I'm hoping to just spend some time together - no bickering, no arguments, no rushing off to do other things... Sounds great right?
Love to you all - and find happiness everywhere because it truly is, we just have to wake ourselves up sometimes to see clearly.