I was well and truly spoilt again - I've been sorting through my presents today, getting them into the places they need to be - make-up to the bathroom etc and I've been starting on some of my new books! I have a standard selection of nice romances, easy to read novels where the key characters have a perfect growth cycle throughout the story. I then also got "A Year Without Make-up: Tales of a 20-something Traveller" by Stephanie Yoder and "How The Secret Changed My Life" by Rhonda Byrne.
I like books that encourage me to think, encourage me to remember that my life isn't just a constant cycle of work and sleep with my boyfriend squeezed in when our schedules overlap. So I started reading "How The Secret Changed My Life" on Christmas day, after I'd peeled lots of potatoes and chopped lots of carrot sticks. I'm a person who needs some proof, the cycle is "Ask, Believe, Receive" and that centre stone is the one I slip on. I had the belief that asking for the Universe to provide proof that it could deliver results was wrong, it was cheating somehow but reading through these stories - other people do it to!
As Judy says in The Santa Clause, for adults believing is seeing but for children they don't need to see something to know that it is real. So is seeing believing or is believing seeing?
For me, I can cast doubt, I can and do overthink things - constantly, and so in terms of The Secret I need to see something to help me cast away the doubt and truly believe.
It's caused me to sit back and think about my expenditure. My monthly salary doesn't go far but if I was smarter with it then I could make it travel a little more and that extra little bit I could save could go towards actual travel. Sean is not big into travel, never has been but he gave me a lovely present this year - a match where I could scratch away the places I've been but it came with a promise, a promise that when our bits of credit card debt are paid off we will travel to all the places on the map. <3 <3 <3
So I thought, if I take a fixed amount of my monthly salary out as cash... £10-£15 a week for my lunches at work and then I force myself to stick to a budget. The money I don't spend from my weekly budget then goes into a piggy bank - it also stops me just tapping my card at every purchase and completely losing track of how much I am or even have spent!
Mum bought me a 2017 day-to-a-page diary and I'm determined to use it every day, write what I'm thankful for and keep myself motivated, to tell myself that saving even pennies is better than nothing. That I can find cheap deals using Skyscanner and AirBnB, that it doesn't have to be all 5 star hotels and beaches but popping out of Edinburgh for a couple of nights to see another city. It can be that simple and that's what I need to remind myself. Everything in life can be that simple, that wonderful, that full of happiness and joy. That's the real secret of life.