We've had a successful propeller like movement into the New Year; we found a local builder who has a joiner on his books that can do the numerous jobs we have to tick off in the house - getting the last of the kitchen cabinets up; flooring the attic; building shelves in the utility cupboard etc. So with that all priced and sorted, we're just waiting now for when they can do the work - unfortunately with both of our schedules, getting two days together can be a challenge at times.
So yesterday I was disappointed to get that surging emotion of impatience again, of things not happening fast enough or decisions having not been made. The trellising in the garden that's been sitting for months waiting to be put up; the bird feeder in the living room window waiting to be hung; the paving stones that need to be extended to create a space for a BBQ and outdoor furniture; the fact we've not even managed a decision on paint colours for the bathroom... or living room... or a theme for the bedroom...
I frustrate the living daylights out of myself, because then I go home and fester, thinking about all the things that need to be done and you can't do anything of these things immediately, so I fester some more.
I eased off the festering when I was able to peacefully shop the Dulux website and pick some sample colours for the bathroom. I can't quite settle myself on a single colour scheme for the bathroom, so thanks to the Dulux suggestions I've picked an alternate colour which I can now envision on a statement wall. All I'd need after that is to paint the damn walls and buy the glass shelving for my statement wall to better utilise the space.
The stupid thing is I have already bought the paint for the bedroom, it's the same colour we had in the flat which is a peaceful aqua, but again I can't settle with it as I don't want the room to have this one plain colour and I do not want a statement wall of a different colour - this crap literally keeps me up at night as I turn over different ideas in my mind, attempting to visualise what I want it to look like. Even my own room, my own space, I can't figure out what I want - do I want curtains? I have one "too short" set hung up already. Do I want to paint the room pale grey? I don't think I want that colour... but perhaps if I had a statement wall, I could settle but of what? Wallpaper? Mural? What about that bright sunny orange/yellow in the yoga studio? They have it painted on those tiny walls where the window is stepped just to give a little more "colour" - I liked that there, do I like it here?
On and on and on it goes. I've not even had the time to fix the painting in the downstairs bathroom as my "spare" time is being invested into doing work for Curves on Trend, cooking, cleaning, general housework, shopping, tidying and so to have a day to calmly bring out the paint and painstakingly go round all the edges to smooth out the lines has just been beyond me. I guess that's also why I want meditation in my life, and why TM should be good for me, as it makes me stop for 20 minutes and invest in purely myself so that I can invest my 86,400 seconds better each day.